OMG somebody PLEASE wind back the clock, let me keep the knowledge i have now so that i can change a few things, then fast foward to the part of my life thats EASY!!!!!!!!!!!


groan im so tired of losing sleep over what possible future im suppose to decide on and how the hell im suppose to get there!!!!!!!!!!!!

nothing is easy, everything is COMPICATED!!!!

trying to finish this year
trying to work out what i want to do next year
deciding how im going to do what i wanna do next year
organising to defer university
applying to a tafe or going directly in an apprenticeship
trying to work out where to start first
writing resumes, ringing potential employers, researching courses endlessly, evaluating the time it'll take to what it is i decide on
trying to work out where im going to live to do this
trying to work out whether or not ill still have easy access to my family, friends and boyfriend!!!!!!!!!
gahhhhhhhhhhh its HARDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!

god i long for the days when my biggest concern was whether or not mum was going to serve beans for dinner and whether or not my father was going to force me to eat them!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhh i wanna be little again, i dont want to grow up, who the hell wants to grow up and WHY??????

where's my peter pan and neverland...

i see the second star to the right, and want to go straight on til morning...but...i have no pixie dust!!!!!!!!!!!! TINK TINK!! where are you????